I haven’t had a boyfriend or been on a proper date in about four, going on five years now. It seems like over the last week or so, my love life or lack there of has been a source of confusion for many. My friends want to know why I’m not dating, and every time I get a chance to talk to my mom or my granny or anyone from back home, they want to know if I’ve finally met someone yet?
To them it’s almost like something doesn’t add up. “Well Amber, you’re this, you’re that, you’ve got this going for you…” The list grows long and my flesh tries its best to convince me that I’m not enough. That allowing the Holy Spirit to set my standards is getting in my way, that maybe I’m not a “good thing” to be found and made a wife.
If I entertain these thoughts and allow myself to get caught up in what everyone else wants for me, I would be doing myself an extreme disservice.
Not only am I loved by THE most high God, but he truly cares for and provides for me. Though I will never be enough he has called me his own and shown me a mercy and grace that will surely keep me indebted to him all the days of my life. I can rest in knowing that even if I never date or court or marry anyone, that my worth is solely predicated on God’s love for me and nothing else.
The joy that I have in Christ is unspeakable, and even when I may want to throw myself a pity party or question why singleness is my portion, I’m reminded that he is more than enough. The Bible says in Psalms 16:5, that Jesus is my inheritance. This makes me one of the richest women alive and I couldn’t be more grateful for having such a perfect and flawless leader of love orchestrating my life.
So the next time you’re feeling real single or possibly even lonely focus on the one who is vying for your attention, Jesus. Shower your love and affection upon him, binge read your bible, color unto him, sing unto him, tell him all about your dreams, goals, aspirations and desires. Make him your everything. Because well…he is everything and longs for our eternal relationship to start with him right now.
Amber D.
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